Although granted when she left porn (was still a hooker for many years thereafter up to when she passed away) she did admit in 2012 when asked "are pornstars mentally ill" she replied "Very much so", so she obviously became self aware. Probably because of all the psychotic shit she did and ended up in jail eventually was the wake up call.
Understand? she was Ultra Textbook Borderline Personality Disorder, a Fentanyl (Sublimaze) Heroin Addict since she was 14. Everything about her was a manipulation, a lie. She was basically an extremely Narcissistic Sociopath.